hahaa... realised i hav not blogged much ever since after my exams. hehh.. been busy doing lots of other stuff - mostly catching up with frens i hav not met throughout the semester, n stuff like that. been to Orchard twice (yeps, the day before yest n yest as well, 2 consecutive days!).. guess tonite shall be heading down there too. hehe.. meeting my uncle n aunt for dinner. their treat. yayy.. dun u jus love it when it's someone else's treat?! :D

Orchard. starting to like that place. jus realise that Library@Orchard is a really cool place to drop by n linger around. thanks, Steffy, for showing me that. otherwise, i'll jus b roaming around shops. heh. then there are Borders n Kinokuniya, free new arrival books for read. u guys must think i'm a cheapskate, but i'd rather not buy a book unless it's really really good, n i really really want to keep it. haha.. otherwise, i'll jus read them there n then. wun mind spending one whole day in a bookshop or library. hmm... nice.. :)

went browsing thru linc tis morning. u mus be wondering: is this girl mad? she's gonna start reading textbooks again huh? Lol.. far from that, i assure u. i'm jus looking out for some old videos that i can watch from the digital/av collection at central lib. heh. found some really interesting ones that i'm gonna watch. check them out under 'my stuff' on the left. n let me know if any of u (my blog readers) are keen on watching on a weekday with me. need to kill the waiting time in between my expts. :P

oooh.. btw, i added the song of the day under 'my stuff' too. i'll try to change the song as often as i can, n usu i'll jus b playing midi files. n yes, the song is gonna b the one that stays in my mind for the day. hehe. so enjoy ya. :)

this song has been playing in my head the whole morning, encouraging me to the very end. trust me, even if it's last paper for me, it wasn't very easy. screw the exams. hahaha.. so for those still having exams, i know how u feel.. but more imptly, i know how u all WILL feel later.. hehee.. so hang in there ya.. indeed, liberation is at hand. :)

*enjoy~!

Beggars cant be choosers.

learnt this lesson today. specs broke last nite, so was awful having to balance it on one arm of the specs. heh.. then got really fed up with it, went to sci coop n see what they could do bout it, give me some super glue or sth. but realise that i hav to change, get a new frame! eeks.. n my paper is in the afternoon... need my specs.. otherwise, my face will almost b kissing the exam paper trying to read the words.. sighh.. so now hav to make do with this new frame. it's quite okie. haha. alex says it looks nice. lol. some comfort. :P

yayy.. dun hate me for putting this here.. haha.. shall put more midi songs from this show soon.. am very much in love with it at the moment.. haha.. :D

why why why? why does it feel so much like a Sunday today? such a lazy day. sigh. no one for me to bug. thank God, i can still bug my blog. :P Bleh...

shall take a nap then watch TV. Lol.. really cant study. no point forcing myself. mb not enough sleep last nite. hahahaa... sorry if i spread the s-i-e-n bug around... mb it's really a good day for me to hide in my room after all... to all those hardworking fellas out there, jia you hor.. ;)

i'm hardly blogging these days. mostly jus copy n paste. lol. even after exams, i think i will hav less time blogging.. haha.. returning back to the ancient world - that of emails n icq to convey my msgs, that of my generation.. lol.. :P

jus a little something for those guitar lovers out there. i'm learning how to play this song.. haha.. hope to get the strumming right! sighh.. i think this is one of the better chords.. sounds like the one used in the song.. hee... (hmm.. jus realise after i posted it that sth is wrong with the spacing betw the chords, dunno how to fix, n m too lazy to bother. u go figure out where the chords to come in, or go here to have a look.. :P)

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Vertical Horizon
Best I Ever Had (Grey Sky Morning)
from the CD Everything You Want
tabbed by Chris Dupont

Tune down 1/2 step (Eb-Ab-Db-Gb-Bb-Eb)

Intro- G-Am7-C2-G-D/F# 2x

Verse 1:
G Am7
So you sailed away
C2 G D/F#
Into a grey sky morning
G Am7
Now I'm here to stay
C2 G D/F#
Love can be so boring

Am Em
Nothing's quite the same now
Am Em D
I just say your name now

Chorus:
G Am7
But it's not so bad
C2 G D/F# Em
You're only the best I ever had
Am
You don't want me back
C2 G D/F# G
You're just the best I ever had

G--Am7--C2

Verse 2:
G Am7
So you stole my world
C2 G D/F#
Now I'm just a phony
G Am7
Remembering the girl
C2 G D/F#
Leaves me down and lonely
Am Em
Send it in a letter
Am Em D
Make yourself feel better

Chorus:
G Am7
But it's not so bad
C2 G D/F# Em
You're only the best I ever had
Am
You don't need me back
C2 G D/F# C2
You're just the best I ever had

Bridge
C2 D
And it may take some time to
G D/F# Em
Patch me up inside
C2 D
But I can't take it so I
Bm C2
Run away and hide
C2 D
And I may find in time that
G D/F# Em
You were always right
D C2 D
You're always right

Verse 3:
G Am7
So you sailed away
C2 G D/F#
Into a grey sky morning
G Am7
Now I'm here to stay
C2 G D/F#
Love can be so boring
Am Em
What was it you wanted
Am Em D
Could it be I'm haunted

G Am7
But it's not so bad
C2 G D/F# Em
You're only the best I ever had
Am
I don't want you back
C2 G D/F# G
You're just the best I ever had

G-Am7-C2-G-D/F# (2x) End with G

Chords

G- 320033
Am7- x02213
Am- x02210
C2- x32033
D/F#- 200232
D2- xx0230
Em- 022000

*chuckles*
i jus cant sleep without blogging down this song for today:

Josh Groban - The Prayer

I pray you'll be our eyes, and watch us where we go
And help us to be wise in times when we don't know
Let this be our prayer, when we lose our way
Lead us to the place, guide us with your grace
To a place where we'll be safe
I pray we'll find your light, and hold it in our hearts
When stars go out each night,
remind us where you are
Let this be our prayer, when shadows fill our day
Help us find a place, guide us with your grace
Give us faith so we'll be safe
A world where pain and sorrow will be ended
And every heart that's broken will be mended
And we'll remember we are all God's children
Reaching out to touch you
Reaching to the sky
We ask that life be kind, and watch us from above
We hope each soul will find another soul to love
Let this be our prayer, just like every child
Who needs to find a place, guide us with your grace
Give us faith so we'll be safe
Needs to find a place, guide us with your grace
Give us faith so we'll be safe

...esp for that sOmeOne who recommended it to me.. love ya. ;)

just three short somethings from me:

-at the medic lib-

blotches of blue
porcupines of green
streaks of murky brown

-after lunch, back in the medic lib-

sheets of gray
tiles of white
signs of dying brown

-leaving medic lib-

rays of hope
winds of change
chances of bloom

(me, at my worst attempt to be a poet)

lessons learnt yest (din get to blog yest.. haha.. was having too much fun.. :P)

a cup of coffee and a good conversation is worth more than 90cents, or any coffee bean or starbucks.

kinoo mo tanoshikatta. demo, kinoo no tanoshi mono wa yori iidesu.
jinsei no naka ni, jiyuu ga ichiban suki desu.

i guess in our life, we're always learning. got this bookmark from a fren once, which says: we need not be perfect, but we need to grow. so, i'm learning new things every day. n one thing i really wanna learn right now is how to be myself. haha... funny isnt it? here i am, 23 yrs old, still very unsure bout myself. hehh.. well, life is a discovery process.. ;)

thanks to all who contributed to my life-learning process *chuckles*

ima, atarashi no watashi ni narimasu.
totemo hoshii desu.

kami-sama, onegaishimasu!

too sien to start studying yet. so shall jus blog a bit. haha. now in law lib. thank God for the comp access here. hehe. but one bad thing is that there is no handphone signal. yeps, not for singtel, not for starhub, not even for my poor m1! sighh.. shd b good though, less distraction. haha.

kinoo wa totemo omoshirokatta desu.
tomodachi no heya de neru no mai ni, eega o mimashita.
tanoshikatta!

jaa, ima benkyoo, benkyoo, BENKYOO!!! haha.. ;)

i think it all boils down to one cup of coffee

hm.. i really mus blog down this thought 1st before i get any work done.. haha.. truly a hallmark of cancer? duh.. no lah, blog addiction.. hehh.. :P

i really think that i'm too much of an I person sometimes. not good not good. too much of I in my conversation. so mb mingling ard too often with the U people is not very healthy for me. make me more I. i shd learn to become more U, but u see, it's not as easy as bending the spoon in the matrix. we're talking bout in the real world leh.

anyway, i find the He and She people very interesting. haha. lots of juicy goss stimes. but nay, i shant like to be like that. well, shd learn to b more They - the news n events people. but that can b rather boring at times. people tend to like to know things happening to them, not around or out there somewhere. well, sometimes those things can b interesting.. sometimes only, sometimes...

hm.. i even know someone who's an It person. haha.. well.. actually, quite a few. It people may not b limited to those who like things (esp high tech stuff), but also those who loves pets. hehehh.. o well, stimes i can be an It person too..

but overall, i think i'm very much an I person.. and ooh.. that We person only comes about in life much later... at least for ppl in my age group anyway. haha.. go figure what this means! hehee...

hehh.. enough reflection.. time to shine for today... work work work!!!... :S

p/s: for those I ppl out there, me got solution.. three of us can come n mingle with one another then we can form the U people more easily.. get it?.. hahaa..

okie, i wanted to blog sth mushie, lovey dovey for a change today.. but then hor, i knew it was a sign - a bad omen, as some may put it - that when i was walking back to my room, i saw a couple who was walking in front of me, kissed right in front of me. i know.. *ew*.. couldn't they have jus looked behind as well to check if the coast was clear before doing such things?! PDA...

then hor... as i went out from pgp for a while jus now, i think i saw a couple doing it blatantly in the public! i think only lar, cos the girl had her head so close to the guy's face, what else was i sposed to think? of cos i couldn't like go nearer to see if it's for real, right! eeks, R(A), R(A), close eyes, close eyes.. these went thru my mind then *chuckles*...

so NOPS, no mushie stuff from me today.. instead, shall leave u all with this thought provoking poetry from Wislawa (yeps, the 2nd one from her in my blog.. hope her publisher will not come n hunt me down over copyright issue. erm, disclaimer: the poetry n the likes put on this webpage is solely for personal use, non-commercial! haha.. there, declared liaoz.. me feel safer.. :P)...

True Love

True love. Is it normal,
is it serious, is it practical?
What does the world get from two people
who exist in a world of their own?

Placed on the same pedestal for no good reason,
drawn randomly from millions, but convinced
it had to happen this way - in reward for what?
For nothing.
The light descends from nowhere.
Why on these two and not on others?
Doesn't this outrage justice? Yes it does.
Doesn't it corrupt our painstakingly erected principles,
and cast the moral from the peak? Yes on both accounts.

Look at the happy couple.
Couldn't they at least try to hide it,
fake a little depression for their friends' sake!
Listen to them laughing - it's an insult.
The language they use - deceptively clear.
And their little celebrations, rituals,
the elaborate mutual routines -
it's obviously a plot behind the human race's back!

It's hard to even guess how far things might go
if people start to follow their example.
What could religion and poetry count on?
What would be remembered? What renounced?
Who'd want to stay within bounds?

True love. Is it really necessary?
Tact and common sense tell us to pass over it in silence,
like a scandal in Life's highest circles.
Perfectly good children are born without its help.
It couldn't populate the planet in a million years,
it comes along so rarely.

Let the people who never find true love
keep saying that there's no such thing.

Their faith will make it easier for them to live and die.

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Yes, again another mind boggling piece of poetry from my dear, dear Wislawa. So apt for the situations that i was put thru today. sighh.. true love.. jus one thing that continues to bug me after reading her work is this: does Wislawa thus believe in true love? pls answer me on this... :)

er...

me had the sudden realisation that i'm rather a fairprice fan.. fairprice this, fairprice that... sighh... not that their stuff arent good, who say i'm complaining? it jus strike me as i was chewing on the bread (yeps, that too, is fairprice)... :P

Song of the day: (by A1)

in case some of u are wondering, what's it with me putting up the lyrics of these songs in my blog? well, these are the songs that play in my head, n usu the songs linger on the whole day. heh, so i hav my own personal cd player in my head, yups. n usu these songs depict my feelings for today. and ya lah, oso a sign that i dun hav that much time to blog lately.. hehe, these songs will occupy the space. n may they cheer ur day up, as they hav surely brought life to mine. :)

Like A Rose

And as I look into your eyes
I see an angel in disguise
Sent from god above
For me to love
To hold and idolise

And as I hold your body near
I'll see this month through to a year
And then forever on
Til life is gone
I'll keep your loving near

Chorus1:
And now I've finally found my way
To lead me down this lonely road
All I have to do
Is follow you
To lighten off my load

Chorus2:
You treat me like a rose
You give me room to grow
You shone the light of love on me
And gave me air so I can breathe
You open doors that close
In a world where anything goes
You give me strength so I stand tall
Just like a rose

And when I feel like hope is gone
You give me strength to carry on
Each time I look at you
There's something new
To keep our loving strong

I hear you whisper in my ear
All of the words I long to hear
Of how you'll always be
Here next to me
To wipe away my tears

[repeat chorus1&2]

And though the seasons change
Our love remains the same
You face the thunder
When the sunshine turns to rain
Just like a rose

[repeat chorus2]

You give me strength so I stand tall
Within this bed of earth
Just like a rose

there's a distinct difference between being alone and loneliness.

being alone. it's a choice one makes. it may b a time one wants to spend to search one's feelings, to get right with oneself. it may be a happy time, when one wants to do jus what one wants to do. i love being alone to enjoy my breakfast stimes. to enjoy the greenery in my kitchen, listen to the occasional birds chirping.

well, loneliness, on the other hand, is plagued by sadness. dun get me wrong. the choice to be alone may also be one made for a sad time. it's jus that in loneliness, there is no choice being made at all. u're jus drawn into it. and there's no way one can equate loneliness to happiness. none. zilch. when one is happy and alone, one would never say one is lonely. that's jus it.

haha. am i speaking crap? heck. my state right now is a mixture of being alone and that of loneliness. but lil piggie, u jus talked bout the clear difference betw these two. but i din say they're exclusive, did i? haa... i'm being alone by choice of assignment, and yet wish for company, frens to be around with at this moment of time so loneliness then creeps into my life. haiz...

*sad~

never open a packet of biscuits during exam time, esp those packets that contain a whole stack of biscuits (think: khong guan's cream crackers).. one tends to munch on them until the very last piece in that packet even when one is not hungry. *drats* exam seasons, that's why.

my sunday morning. listening to my fav radio station. lalalalaa... jus wanna blog. dun wanna do my assignment. haha. but what needs to be done, needs to be done!

*sigh~

jus wanna add tis in:


the orion -- beautiful
it's out in the night sky now, so for those late sleepers, keep a look out for it.

hmmm... yesterday was a load of fun. haha. went to watch matric on IMAX! finally get to feel the effect of IMAX n what do i think about it? Great, cool, a total wow. Haha. though it's not anything 3D, u sorta get the 3D feeling somehow. hehh.. but the show itself... well, a lot of ppl had diverse views at the end, but i kinda like it. a conclusion, mb a little simple for some, a little anti-climax.. but i like it. haa.. reminds me of terminator 3, wraps things up nicely. :)

well, yesterday was fun too cos i got to go out. havnt been out for a looong time. i mean, as in really out out. Sat's church service doesnt count. haha.. went to Orchard with Fongky n Julian (a new fren met, a new bond fostered, glad to meet n get to know u. small world. though u might not get to read my blog anytime soon, jus wanna put it in here that u're a fun fella n hang out with. jus mb not in the bookstores. haha..). yeps, after a looong lunch at lido, we ended up at Borders n Kinokuniya. those two book freaks. haha. but i really do think that i need to read more after being with them. yes! i hav the whole Dec holiday to do jus that. erm, in the midst of my hyp, part-time work (yay, praise God, i get to work in coop! ;D), n etc etc etc.. yeps, gonna do some serious reading. :)

but now it's time to get down to some serious studying. haha. had too much fun lately. o well, something to thank God for. ;)

yayyy... got myself promoted from raw blog to one with a very good skin-graft.. hehh.. me jus read about skin-grafting n how advance it realli is in the medical world.. well, likewise in the blog-world too.. hehh.. thanks, fOnGky.. owe u one.. ;)

me hope the rest love the blue blue sky.. oh, i love the rain, too.. jus that when i fly, i wanna soar into the blue blue sky.. heee... (yes, i love thunder n lightning, but imagine urself flying in that kinda weather.. sheesh.. me not superman.. haha.. :P)

hey guys, long time no blog... nyanyaa.. decided to take tonite off to get even... muahahaa... thanks to the feature called *Change Time & Date* that i see at the side... so time n tide wait not for man, but for us bloggers.. hehh... pls read up on past entries which i jus entered.. hehe.. din have time to do before that.. was busy doing a prac report.. me ol' last min habit, heh.. need to kick that off sometime soon!.. :P

o yaa.. btw, that song... me never really know the full lyrics until today.. haha.. it was playing in my head, n viola.. what a nice lyrics it has too... *but there's one thing I know, the blue he sends to meet me won't defeat me, it won't be long till happiness steps up to greet me*..

hav a happy time, all ye fellas.. to those in NUS, happy mugging... take time to relax n enjoy the rain at times.. ;)

Song for today: (with the newly added feature of the midi file for u to enjoy with me... :D)

Raindrops keep falling on my head
And just like the guy whose feet are too big for his bed
Nothin' seems to fit
Those raindrops are falling on my head, they keep falling

So I just did me some talkin' to the sun
And I said I didn't like the way he' got things done
Sleepin' on the job
Those raindrops are falling on my head, they keep falling

But there's one thing I know
The blues he sends to meet me won't defeat me
It won't be long till happiness steps up to greet me

Raindrops keep falling on my head
But that doesn't mean my eyes will soon be turnin' red
Crying's not for me
Cause I'm never gonna stop the rain by complainin'
Because I'm free
Nothing's worrying me.

borrowed the collection of poems from Wislawa Szymborska on Friday.. was really enthralled by her words, was living in her world, until that thing happened on Sat morning.. haha.. so nvm.. me shall blog it down here on Sunday, right after that frustrating moment, to get myself re-absorbed into her world again... hmmm...

Love at First Sight
(yeps, it's that one from Turn Left Turn Right.. now u get to enjoy the longer, full version.. :))

They're both convinced
that a sudden passion joined them.
Such certainty is beautiful,
but uncertainty is more beautiful still.

Since they'd never met before, they're sure
that there'd been nothing between them.
But what's the word from the streets, staircases, hallways--
perhaps they've passed by each other a million times?

I want to ask them
if they don't remember--
a moment face to face
in some revolving door?
perhaps a "sorry" muttered in the crowd?
a curt "wrong number" caught in the receiver?
but I know the answer.
No, they don't remember.

They'd be amazed to hear
that Chance has been toying with them
now for years.

Not quite ready yet
to become their Destiny,
it pushed them close, drove them apart,
it barred their path,
stifling a laugh,
and then leaped aside.

They were signs and signals,
even if they couldn't read them yet.
Perhaps three years ago
or just last Tuesday
a certain leaf fluttered
from one shoulder to another?
Something was dropped and then picked up.
Who knows, maybe the ball that vanished
into childhood's thicket?

There were doorknobs and doorbells
where one touch had covered another beforehand.
Suitcases checked and standing side by side.
One night, perhaps, the same dream,
grown hazy by morning.

Every beginning
is only a sequel, after all,
and the book of events
is always open halfway through.

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wuaaa.. touching leh.. amazing too.. i like her ending. most of her poetry works are jus like that. leaving u craving for more, in deep thoughts, lost forevermore.

but there was also a sense of distaste as i read this poem. dun get me wrong. i'm not so self-contradictory as to love n hate the same person at the same time. the distaste went to Jimmy Liao, the author of TLTR. suddenly all my aweness to his originality ebbed away as i came to the awareness at what unjust he had done to Wislawa, using her poem for his story. it was her after all, her who put such simplicity into words, into beauty, never never him.

still, hav to give credits to the author for bringing her works up. otherwise, one as ignorant as me would have never noted down her magnificient works of art. and also him for his illustration of her works so aptly put into drawings, into life.

shall blog down some more of her poetry in future. look out for the one entitled True Love. how true, how real true love is indeed?.. thou shalt find out, another time, another blog.. :)

anyway, off to my mugging sanctuary.. hehh.. :P

so flustered... came early to lab today, wanna re-start working again cos lately kinda sianz to jus mug away. looks like i'll jus hav to get used to that. din hav enough of one substance to start off my expt. thank God that i chked before i do anything, but the harm has been done nonetheless. i overslept this morning, rushed, managed to come to lab, say relatively early still.. then this happened after i've been waiting for the heating block to warm up. urgh! so disgusting... hehh.. sorry, din mean to blog such stuff so early in the morn, esp when i wanted to put down a piece of poetry... o well... when such things happen, one jus cannot keep one's mouth shut, esp to the quiet confidante that i found in my blog page.. to my avid readers, jus bear with me, k... :P